antsy

16 weeks, 5 days

hey y'all. i haven't had a lot to say the past couple of weeks about this whole pregnancy thing--all i've really wanted to do is whine about how tired and blah i feel, and there's only so much of that a person can handle before they are just DONE. so yeah--suffice it to say that i'm still not feeling great, and let's just leave it at that.

what i really want to do is DO stuff to get ready for this baby, and i don't feel like i can until i find out whether or not it's a boy or a girl. it's not that i care so much what gender it is--it's more that i want to plan things and start preparing for its arrival. all of my druid-y girlfriends who always seem to be right about this stuff have all separately told me that this baby is a girl. it's hard not to let that affect my thinking, and i admit, it's made me kind of start mentally planning for a girl. however, i know that's crazy, and i'm not doing anything stupid like buying a bunch of pink onesies. i'm REALLY trying not to think of it as one way or another. i have a drive-by appointment with the doctor on thursday, and at that appointment, they should schedule my level 2 ultrasound, at which i SHOULD be able to find out. that's usually between 18 and 20 weeks, so SURELY i will know by the end of the month. can you tell i am a touch anxious?! turns out, i am not so good at waiting.